...and the answer is

It’s a cool day. The clouds arch the entire sky a luminescent charcoal from the sun hiding behind. Trees still hang heavy with burnt crimson, marigold, and golden leaves though the wind has done her very best to release them from their perch. There is this overwhelming sense of grey to the day with color sown in patches. It’s that time of the season when everything feels internal – warmth, good moods, and color.
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I went to all my doctors appointments, followed-up with tests, and my fear of cancer was nothing more than that – a fear. I do have a nodule swollen and puffy, but it is not big enough to warrant further investigation. If I’ve learned anything from this, it’s that I do appreciate living, even the complicated parts that challenge us to step outside our ever present comfort zones. I wouldn’t trade it in for the great beyond and am very glad I don’t have to wonder about it for the time being. I’m also grateful that I don’t have to share my time with thoughts of cancer. Perhaps that’s the lesson in all of this. If spurred to answer the question, do you appreciate your life as is, I would answer yes.